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While I’d love to post everyday, I will most likely not have the luxury of doing so. Instead, I shall make a sincere effort to post at least once every week. Toward that end, I will be posting my reflections based on the daily readings from Bert Ghezzi’s “Voices of the Saints” (© 2000, Image Books)
Today, by my calculations, is the 326th day of the year, but I will simply write a reflection based on the very first entry in this book (pg. 2)
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St. Aelred of Rievaulx (1110 – 1167)
And so praying to Christ for your friend, and longing to be heard by Christ for your friend’s sake, you reach out with devotion and desire to Christ himself. And suddenly and insensibly, as though touched by the gentleness of Christ close at hand, you begin to taste how sweet he is and to feel how lovely he is. Thus from that holy love with which you embrace your friend, you rise to that love by which you embrace Christ.
How glad I am that my own experiences of love and friendship were described by one who lived almost a millennium before! Indeed, it is almost distressing to pray in such a way as this for a friend. I have experienced this first hand. When filled with the “longing to be heard by Christ for your friend’s sake” and with that “holy love with which you embrace your friend” and then expressing it in prayer to Christ, one becomes aware of the development of an intimate connection between them and their friend. This is distressing in our modern age, where we are taught to remain disconnected and isolated, in a world unto ourselves, where autonomy and individuality have supplanted love as chief of the virtues. For, now, because of this intimate connection, one’s fate is in part caught up in that of their friend. They render themselves vulnerable to the other.
Even greater than this is that devotion and desire for Christ which springs up from this love. At first this may come as a surprise, and it may seem that this is merely incidental or secondary, but this is not so. No, for holy love, authentic love, has Christ as its beginning and its end. It streams forth from the heart of the Crucified and returns “from whence it came.” It can only come to be in Christ and it can only find its completion in him.
This shows us how we can tell whether or to what degree true love is present in our hearts. We can ask ourselves, “Does this thing I call ‘love of Christ’ cause an increase in my love of my neighbor? And does this thing I call ‘love of neighbor’ lead to a greater love of Christ?”
A brief reflection on the condition of our love reveals how little is actually present. But if we find ourselves in this condition (and who in this life could ever claim for themselves the perfection of love?), we should not despair. Not at all! Remember that this holy love comes from Jesus. It is not really ours at all. We cannot manufacture it, or cause it to be by mere force of will. Know that Jesus wants to fill us to overflowing with this love. All we need to do is ask him for it and to remain open to receiving it. He will not give it if we do not ask him, and he will not force us to take it, if we do not open our hearts to receive it. So, we ought to pray,
“Jesus, give me an ever greater love for you, for my dear friends, and for my neighbor.”
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Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
The Vocation to Love
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In a previous entry I wrote:
I further resolve that I shall not seek out any particular form of this vocation, but shall trust that he shall reveal his calling in his good time. Indeed, he is already calling me and leading me in the way I should go, though I cannot tell where I am going.
In the absence of a clear call to take decisive action, I shall content myself with remaining as I am. I shall heed the words of St. Paul to the Corinthians (1 Cor 7:24 NIV)
The gift of celibacy is clearly a symbolic anticipation of the kingdom of heaven. It proclaims, "We live for more than this life, our destiny reaches beyond the doors of death." What then, is marriage but a concession for incapable of controlling their passions? Certainly it has that function. But let us consider an example from history:
Louis and Zelie were an ordinary man and woman. As young adults, they were both drawn to the religious life and each unsuccessfully sought entrance into a religious community. With that path closed to them, at least for a time, they each settled down in a town in France. After some time, they met each other and were married.
Loius Martin and Zelie Guerin married because of the kingdom of heaven. In their vocation to marriage, they were choosing the way of love, and were living for the world which is to come. Their last child was a girl, one who is known far more widely than either of her parents. They named her Therese — Therese Martin, whom we know as St. Therese, the Little Flower.
It is clear to me that it is not important whether I am called to marriage or celibacy, but that I live out my vocation to love. Whether I am called to marry or to remain unmarried, I shall do so "because of the kingdom of heaven."
How else can I live?
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In a previous entry I wrote:
I wonder how it is that I continue finding these Theresian themes cropping up in my life. “My vocation is to love” she said. Perhaps if I had chosen a different saint for my patron when I was confirmed I would have seen the development of things attributed to them instead.All other vocations must have this vocation as their source. Each of them is but a different expression of the same vocation to love. I can be faithful to my vocation, though I do not know what form it shall take, for it is in the end a vocation to love.
I further resolve that I shall not seek out any particular form of this vocation, but shall trust that he shall reveal his calling in his good time. Indeed, he is already calling me and leading me in the way I should go, though I cannot tell where I am going.
In the absence of a clear call to take decisive action, I shall content myself with remaining as I am. I shall heed the words of St. Paul to the Corinthians (1 Cor 7:24 NIV)
Brothers, each man, as responsible to God, should remain in the situation God called him to.He continues in vss. 29-31:
What I mean, brothers, is that the time is short. From now on those who have wives should live as if they had none; those who mourn, as if they did not; those who are happy, as if they are not; those who buy something, as if it were not theirs to keep; those who use the things of the world, as if not engrossed in them. For this world in its present form is passing away.The earth in its present form is passing away. This means that I ought not to do anything for the sake of earthly gain, for any earthly gain will pass away with the earth. I must fix my eyes on what is unseen, on what is eternal, that which does not pass away. What does this mean when it comes to discerning my vocation in life, particularly as concerns whether to marry or to remain unmarried? Jesus says (Matt. 19:11-12):
Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given. For some. . . have renounced marriage because of the kingdom of heaven. The one who can accept this should accept it.
The gift of celibacy is clearly a symbolic anticipation of the kingdom of heaven. It proclaims, "We live for more than this life, our destiny reaches beyond the doors of death." What then, is marriage but a concession for incapable of controlling their passions? Certainly it has that function. But let us consider an example from history:
Louis and Zelie were an ordinary man and woman. As young adults, they were both drawn to the religious life and each unsuccessfully sought entrance into a religious community. With that path closed to them, at least for a time, they each settled down in a town in France. After some time, they met each other and were married.
Louis, 34, and Zelie, 26, married and began their remarkable voyage through life. Within the next fifteen years, Zelie bore nine children, seven girls and two boys. "We lived only for them", Zelie wrote; "they were all our happiness". The Martins' delight in their children turned to shock and sorrow as tragedy relentlessly and mercilessly stalked their little ones. Within three years, Zelie's two baby boys, a five year old girl and a six-and-a-half week old infant girl all died. Zelie was left numb with sadness. "I haven't a penny's worth of courage," she lamented. But her faith sustained her through these terrible ordeals. In a letter to her sister-in-law who had lost an infant son, Zelie remembered: "When I closed the eyes of my dear little children and buried them, I felt sorrow through and through....People said to me, 'It would have been better never to have had them.' I couldn't stand such language. My children were not lost forever; life is short and full of miseries, and we shall find our little ones again up above." (Source)
Loius Martin and Zelie Guerin married because of the kingdom of heaven. In their vocation to marriage, they were choosing the way of love, and were living for the world which is to come. Their last child was a girl, one who is known far more widely than either of her parents. They named her Therese — Therese Martin, whom we know as St. Therese, the Little Flower.
It is clear to me that it is not important whether I am called to marriage or celibacy, but that I live out my vocation to love. Whether I am called to marry or to remain unmarried, I shall do so "because of the kingdom of heaven."
How else can I live?
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Thursday, October 13, 2005
Heaven vs. Hell (or Love vs. Fear)
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I have no fear of hell, for fear and love cannot co-exist. In fact, it is very simple to avoid hell and reach heaven. But why does Jesus say that narrow is the path to eternal life, and few there are who find it? Because of the pride of our hearts We insist on saying with Lucifer, "I will ascend to the heavens" even thought we are powerless to do so. It is simple because Jesus knows the way to heaven, and his will is to take us to be with him there, and whatever Jesus wills he is able to do. All we have to do is entrust ourselves to him. It is like we are little children and between us and heaven there is a vast wilderness fraught with peril and danger.
While it is simple, we may find it very hard to trust him, for he will carry us through many difficult and tyring experiences. Deserts, "dangers, toils and sanres", dark forests, harsh and rugged mountains, frozen tundra, hordes of enemies, perhaps passing by the gates of the Enemy himself. At each state of the journey we will be tempted to succumb to fear and leap from the arms of Jesus and run away and hide. Or in our spiritual myopia, we may think there is a better way, a safer way.
At each of these moments we must cling to Jesus ever more tightly, we must entrust ourselves to him over and over again. We are not smart enough, wise enough, or strong enough to make our own way. Compared to the greatness of that to which we are called, we can barely move a finger. Indeed, it is not so much we who cling to Jesus more tightly, but he who holds us ever closer — if we ask him. He will not hold us against our will, thought it pains him to see us run away.
But do not fear if you have let go of him and have run away; he will come looking for you. Indeed, he already knows where you are. Listen. . . he is gently calling for you, trying to woo you from your hiding place. Raise your head and open your eyes. . . he is already standing at your side, longing to pick you up and carry you again. And, he will follow you all the way to the gates of hell, trying to woo you back to him.
But he will not prevent you from walking through those gates.
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I have no fear of hell, for fear and love cannot co-exist. In fact, it is very simple to avoid hell and reach heaven. But why does Jesus say that narrow is the path to eternal life, and few there are who find it? Because of the pride of our hearts We insist on saying with Lucifer, "I will ascend to the heavens" even thought we are powerless to do so. It is simple because Jesus knows the way to heaven, and his will is to take us to be with him there, and whatever Jesus wills he is able to do. All we have to do is entrust ourselves to him. It is like we are little children and between us and heaven there is a vast wilderness fraught with peril and danger.
While it is simple, we may find it very hard to trust him, for he will carry us through many difficult and tyring experiences. Deserts, "dangers, toils and sanres", dark forests, harsh and rugged mountains, frozen tundra, hordes of enemies, perhaps passing by the gates of the Enemy himself. At each state of the journey we will be tempted to succumb to fear and leap from the arms of Jesus and run away and hide. Or in our spiritual myopia, we may think there is a better way, a safer way.
At each of these moments we must cling to Jesus ever more tightly, we must entrust ourselves to him over and over again. We are not smart enough, wise enough, or strong enough to make our own way. Compared to the greatness of that to which we are called, we can barely move a finger. Indeed, it is not so much we who cling to Jesus more tightly, but he who holds us ever closer — if we ask him. He will not hold us against our will, thought it pains him to see us run away.
But do not fear if you have let go of him and have run away; he will come looking for you. Indeed, he already knows where you are. Listen. . . he is gently calling for you, trying to woo you from your hiding place. Raise your head and open your eyes. . . he is already standing at your side, longing to pick you up and carry you again. And, he will follow you all the way to the gates of hell, trying to woo you back to him.
But he will not prevent you from walking through those gates.
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Friday, September 09, 2005
Entrusting to Jesus
From a journal entry:
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Jesus, I need your help. This is too great and wonderful for me. To love another and so to love you more, and to love you and so to love another more. It is possible, is it not? To have this: the more I love the one, the more I love the other. Surely in my heart my great desire is to love without end.
I wonder how it is that I continue finding these Theresian themes cropping up in my life. “My vocation is to love” she said. Perhaps if I had chosen a different saint for my patron when I was confirmed I would have seen the development of things attributed to them instead.
Dear Therese said that she would spend her heaven doing good on earth. Well, I want to spend my earth living as if heaven is already here. It is my firm conviction that it in fact is. “The kingdom of God is within you.” Which is greater, the Lord of the land or the land, the kingdom? The Lord! And does not the Lord of the Kingdom of Heaven dwell within me? Have I not been baptized into his death and become a part of his body? Have I not begun to enter into his very life, or as Peter writes, to be a partaker of the diving nature? So what prevents me from living accordingly?
I do.
I do not want to let go of my pride. . . . I do not fully trust Jesus. My pride says to me, “I am your only sure guarantee that you will not be lost, that your identity will not fade away, that you will be able to maintain your grasp, your hold on being important. If you let go you may be so fully assimilated into Him that both the world and God shall forget you. . . you will not even be a memory.”
While illogical, that is a very compelling argument. For, that is the greatest fear of selfishness: being forgotten by all, especially by the person in whom it resides.
But we do not lose our identity in allowing the love of God to overwhelm us. We do not become oblivious to our own existence.
I have some idea of what it means to love God, and to love my neighbor, but what does it mean to authentically love one’s own self?
I think the key is entrusting, actively entrusting oneself to God. I think that is the key to truly loving another.
All love goes out and returns to its source: God. Whatever love we have finds its first and ultimate source in God. Flowing through us, its natural direction is towards God again.
So to love myself, I place myself in the place which is the source and end of love: the heart of God. I place myself there as a whole being; I give myself to him; I entrust myself to his keeping. From then on, gazing on myself I cannot help but see myself in the context of the Beauty and Love of God. Thus, I do not love myself for my own sake, because my gaze becomes transfixed on the one who holds me.
Likewise with others: If I entrust them to Jesus, insofar as it is for me to do so, I cannot help but see them in the context of the Beauty and Love of Christ. They do not lose their identity, nor I mine – no, rather than being obscured by the light of his Beauty, we are illuminated by it. Not only does it shine upon us, revealing the surface, but so intense is this light that it shines through us, and we become illuminated throughout the whole of our being.
For the full completion of this, we shall have to wait until we are raised to live, but raised incorruptible, even glorified.
Hasten the day, Lord Jesus.
Come Holy Spirit, begin your work in my heart today.
Father, glorify your name.
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Jesus, I need your help. This is too great and wonderful for me. To love another and so to love you more, and to love you and so to love another more. It is possible, is it not? To have this: the more I love the one, the more I love the other. Surely in my heart my great desire is to love without end.
I wonder how it is that I continue finding these Theresian themes cropping up in my life. “My vocation is to love” she said. Perhaps if I had chosen a different saint for my patron when I was confirmed I would have seen the development of things attributed to them instead.
Dear Therese said that she would spend her heaven doing good on earth. Well, I want to spend my earth living as if heaven is already here. It is my firm conviction that it in fact is. “The kingdom of God is within you.” Which is greater, the Lord of the land or the land, the kingdom? The Lord! And does not the Lord of the Kingdom of Heaven dwell within me? Have I not been baptized into his death and become a part of his body? Have I not begun to enter into his very life, or as Peter writes, to be a partaker of the diving nature? So what prevents me from living accordingly?
I do.
I do not want to let go of my pride. . . . I do not fully trust Jesus. My pride says to me, “I am your only sure guarantee that you will not be lost, that your identity will not fade away, that you will be able to maintain your grasp, your hold on being important. If you let go you may be so fully assimilated into Him that both the world and God shall forget you. . . you will not even be a memory.”
While illogical, that is a very compelling argument. For, that is the greatest fear of selfishness: being forgotten by all, especially by the person in whom it resides.
But we do not lose our identity in allowing the love of God to overwhelm us. We do not become oblivious to our own existence.
I have some idea of what it means to love God, and to love my neighbor, but what does it mean to authentically love one’s own self?
I think the key is entrusting, actively entrusting oneself to God. I think that is the key to truly loving another.
All love goes out and returns to its source: God. Whatever love we have finds its first and ultimate source in God. Flowing through us, its natural direction is towards God again.
So to love myself, I place myself in the place which is the source and end of love: the heart of God. I place myself there as a whole being; I give myself to him; I entrust myself to his keeping. From then on, gazing on myself I cannot help but see myself in the context of the Beauty and Love of God. Thus, I do not love myself for my own sake, because my gaze becomes transfixed on the one who holds me.
Likewise with others: If I entrust them to Jesus, insofar as it is for me to do so, I cannot help but see them in the context of the Beauty and Love of Christ. They do not lose their identity, nor I mine – no, rather than being obscured by the light of his Beauty, we are illuminated by it. Not only does it shine upon us, revealing the surface, but so intense is this light that it shines through us, and we become illuminated throughout the whole of our being.
For the full completion of this, we shall have to wait until we are raised to live, but raised incorruptible, even glorified.
Hasten the day, Lord Jesus.
Come Holy Spirit, begin your work in my heart today.
Father, glorify your name.
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Monday, June 27, 2005
Joy in Suffering
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Monday, December 13, 2004
A Forgotten Friend
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Ah, my friend! How long it has been since I have enjoyed your presence! I have seen you passing by and I have heard your voice from across the way, but, I've been too busy to stop and talk. We do talk in the morning at work everyday, but that's just business talk. Its important for me to focus on the upcoming project, so I can't afford to really listen to you unless your telling me something that relates to my project. People think that we're the best of friends 'cause I talk about you a lot. Most of the time though I talk about you when I get in discussions with other people. It's easier for me to convince people when I can tell you that you agree with me, and that way, when they don't listen to me, I can pass it off and tell them that really they aren't listening to you.
Sometimes when I'm feeling nostaligc, I get out the old pictures and letters I've received from you. It's great to remember all the good times we used to have, isn't it? Sometimes you made me smile, and sometimes I'd cry. You were always the best at comforting me when things were rough. Just thinking about it is almost like experiencing it all over again.
Well I've gotta go to the discipleship meeting. We're talking about how people don't make Scripture important enough in their lives and what to do about it. I've got some great ideas and I can't wait to share them with the group.
I'm sure I'll see you at Bible study this week. You're gonna be there, right?
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If you don't recognize this person, read Psalm 1: The blessed man avoids several things, but what is it that he does?
Ah, my friend! How long it has been since I have enjoyed your presence! I have seen you passing by and I have heard your voice from across the way, but, I've been too busy to stop and talk. We do talk in the morning at work everyday, but that's just business talk. Its important for me to focus on the upcoming project, so I can't afford to really listen to you unless your telling me something that relates to my project. People think that we're the best of friends 'cause I talk about you a lot. Most of the time though I talk about you when I get in discussions with other people. It's easier for me to convince people when I can tell you that you agree with me, and that way, when they don't listen to me, I can pass it off and tell them that really they aren't listening to you.
Sometimes when I'm feeling nostaligc, I get out the old pictures and letters I've received from you. It's great to remember all the good times we used to have, isn't it? Sometimes you made me smile, and sometimes I'd cry. You were always the best at comforting me when things were rough. Just thinking about it is almost like experiencing it all over again.
Well I've gotta go to the discipleship meeting. We're talking about how people don't make Scripture important enough in their lives and what to do about it. I've got some great ideas and I can't wait to share them with the group.
I'm sure I'll see you at Bible study this week. You're gonna be there, right?
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If you don't recognize this person, read Psalm 1: The blessed man avoids several things, but what is it that he does?
Sunday, August 29, 2004
Forgiveness
Throughout the Scriptures and from many pulpits the message is preached, "Repent, confess your sins, turn to God. . ." An excellent -- and essential -- call. Every day we are called to conversion, to once again lay our hearts before the Cross and cry out, "Lord, have mercy! . . . . I have sinned against you in thought, word and deed, by what I have done and by what I have not done . . . ."
But I think there is an aspect of this which we have placed far to little emphasis on, though Scripture goes to great length to address it.
"So if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there before the alatar and go; first be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift." (Matt. 5:23-24 RSV)
"Pray then like this: . . . . And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtos; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father also will forgive you; but if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive you trespasses." (Matt. 6:9a, 12-15)
"Then Peter came up and said to him, "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? As many as seven times?" Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you seven times, but seventy times seven." (Matt. 18:21-22)
"Then his lord summoned him and said to him, 'You wicked servant! I forgave you all that debt because you besought me; and should not you have had mercy on your fellow servant, as I had mercy on you?' And in anger his lord delivered him to the jailers, till he should pay all his debt. So also my heavenly Father will do to everyone of you, if you do not forgive your brother from your heart." (Matt. 18:32-35. Read 21-35 for the context. I had typed it all out, but it was really long. . .)
"And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against any one; so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses." (Mark 11:25)
"Take heed to yourselves; if your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him; and if he sins against you seven times in the day, and turns to you seven times, and says, 'I repent,' you must forgive him." (Luke 17:3-4)
"But if any one has cause pain, he has caused it not to me, but in some measure — not to put it too severely — to you all. For such a one this punishment by the majority is enough; so you should rather turn to forgive and comfort him, or he may be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow. So I be you to reaffirm you love for him. For this is why I wrote, that I might test you and know whether you are obedient in everything. Any one whom you forgive, I also forgive. What I have forgiven, if I have forgiven anything, has been for you sake in the presence of Christ, to keep Satan from gaining the advantage over us; for we are not ignorant of his designs." (2 Cor. 2:5-11)
I know I've read the most recent passage before, but I had completely forgotten about it. I find it quite interesting that he refers to keeping Satan from gaining advantage over us by forgiving. And how true that is! I was prompted to find these passages and write about this passage because of my experiences this summer and throughout my life.
What is it about forgiveness that causes Jesus to use such strong words about it and for Paul to speak of it as if it can prevent Satan from gaining advantage over us? And why can it be so hard to forgive?
For me, forgiveness demands that I love the other person, and many times that's the last thing I want to do. My sister cuts me with her words in that way only she knows, perhaps my friend was a jerk to me, or some of my other friends left me out of the evening plans. Maybe a coworker speaks badly about me all the time, making work miserable, or even gets me fired, or my wife cheats on me, or a drunk driver kills my parents, or a business partner runs off with all the money. . . My reaction (I realize others react differently) is to let a cold indifference creep in (or so it seems), saying to me, "Whatever. . . it doesn't matter. . . You know, you don't really need them. This doesn't really need to bother you. There are better people out there. Just cut your losses and move on. Forget about it, forget about them."
That may sound nice, but let me call it what it is: A bold faced lie from Hell.
Oh, I may wish that it doesn't matter, or that it doesn't bother me, but the fact is, it does matter. Underneath the facade of indifference is a heart in turmoil. We are made for love, to love and to be loved. And how could you love someone and not forgive them? Everytime we go against love, we are fighting against the very way we were created to be, especially we who have received the gift of the Holy Spirit, making us alive in Christ, partakers of the divine nature
And as do so, we deaden a part of our heart.
We say, "Oh heart, do not love!! For to love brings to much risk of pain, and humility!" and in the process, we turn our hearts away from God. Slowly, surely, we find ourselves like the man who refused to forgive a small debt though he had been forgiven such a large debt (Matt 18). So often we read that story and say, "Ahh, foolish servant! Can he not see the ridiculousness of what he is doing? How can he not understand what he is doing?" but we do not see that we very often are that servant.
I had conversations with several people this summer in which they told me that their relationship with God was a little rocky. After talking with them for a while, I discovered that deep below the surface — maybe even unknown to them before then — there was someone or some people that they were refusing to forgive. The suggestion that they pray for them was met with stiff resistance, and I think I know why. Both forgiving people and praying for them (on their behalf, not that God would send them to a deep, dark hold somewhere) require love. As soon as we begin to pray for someone, we bring the attitudes in our heart into sharp contrast with love. So, if we don't want to love someone, we aren't going to want to pray for them, or forgive them.
I would like to reflect on asking for forgiveness from others, but I will save that for another time.
† Jonathan †
But I think there is an aspect of this which we have placed far to little emphasis on, though Scripture goes to great length to address it.
"So if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there before the alatar and go; first be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift." (Matt. 5:23-24 RSV)
"Pray then like this: . . . . And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtos; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father also will forgive you; but if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive you trespasses." (Matt. 6:9a, 12-15)
"Then Peter came up and said to him, "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? As many as seven times?" Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you seven times, but seventy times seven." (Matt. 18:21-22)
"Then his lord summoned him and said to him, 'You wicked servant! I forgave you all that debt because you besought me; and should not you have had mercy on your fellow servant, as I had mercy on you?' And in anger his lord delivered him to the jailers, till he should pay all his debt. So also my heavenly Father will do to everyone of you, if you do not forgive your brother from your heart." (Matt. 18:32-35. Read 21-35 for the context. I had typed it all out, but it was really long. . .)
"And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against any one; so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses." (Mark 11:25)
"Take heed to yourselves; if your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him; and if he sins against you seven times in the day, and turns to you seven times, and says, 'I repent,' you must forgive him." (Luke 17:3-4)
"But if any one has cause pain, he has caused it not to me, but in some measure — not to put it too severely — to you all. For such a one this punishment by the majority is enough; so you should rather turn to forgive and comfort him, or he may be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow. So I be you to reaffirm you love for him. For this is why I wrote, that I might test you and know whether you are obedient in everything. Any one whom you forgive, I also forgive. What I have forgiven, if I have forgiven anything, has been for you sake in the presence of Christ, to keep Satan from gaining the advantage over us; for we are not ignorant of his designs." (2 Cor. 2:5-11)
I know I've read the most recent passage before, but I had completely forgotten about it. I find it quite interesting that he refers to keeping Satan from gaining advantage over us by forgiving. And how true that is! I was prompted to find these passages and write about this passage because of my experiences this summer and throughout my life.
What is it about forgiveness that causes Jesus to use such strong words about it and for Paul to speak of it as if it can prevent Satan from gaining advantage over us? And why can it be so hard to forgive?
For me, forgiveness demands that I love the other person, and many times that's the last thing I want to do. My sister cuts me with her words in that way only she knows, perhaps my friend was a jerk to me, or some of my other friends left me out of the evening plans. Maybe a coworker speaks badly about me all the time, making work miserable, or even gets me fired, or my wife cheats on me, or a drunk driver kills my parents, or a business partner runs off with all the money. . . My reaction (I realize others react differently) is to let a cold indifference creep in (or so it seems), saying to me, "Whatever. . . it doesn't matter. . . You know, you don't really need them. This doesn't really need to bother you. There are better people out there. Just cut your losses and move on. Forget about it, forget about them."
That may sound nice, but let me call it what it is: A bold faced lie from Hell.
Oh, I may wish that it doesn't matter, or that it doesn't bother me, but the fact is, it does matter. Underneath the facade of indifference is a heart in turmoil. We are made for love, to love and to be loved. And how could you love someone and not forgive them? Everytime we go against love, we are fighting against the very way we were created to be, especially we who have received the gift of the Holy Spirit, making us alive in Christ, partakers of the divine nature
And as do so, we deaden a part of our heart.
We say, "Oh heart, do not love!! For to love brings to much risk of pain, and humility!" and in the process, we turn our hearts away from God. Slowly, surely, we find ourselves like the man who refused to forgive a small debt though he had been forgiven such a large debt (Matt 18). So often we read that story and say, "Ahh, foolish servant! Can he not see the ridiculousness of what he is doing? How can he not understand what he is doing?" but we do not see that we very often are that servant.
I had conversations with several people this summer in which they told me that their relationship with God was a little rocky. After talking with them for a while, I discovered that deep below the surface — maybe even unknown to them before then — there was someone or some people that they were refusing to forgive. The suggestion that they pray for them was met with stiff resistance, and I think I know why. Both forgiving people and praying for them (on their behalf, not that God would send them to a deep, dark hold somewhere) require love. As soon as we begin to pray for someone, we bring the attitudes in our heart into sharp contrast with love. So, if we don't want to love someone, we aren't going to want to pray for them, or forgive them.
I would like to reflect on asking for forgiveness from others, but I will save that for another time.
† Jonathan †
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